Posted by Michael Mazzella |
Posted on April 18, 2014
You got that medicine that I need. Mist me. Take my soul away. I used to be an angel, but take me, turn me into the devil. Have what’s left of my soul. Shoot it deep into my heartstrings. Mist me. I need to be seen. Hear me. Place me in the center of the dust storm. My innocence lost. I’m looking to take it hard. Let me imitate the greats, please, you got that medicine that I need. How do I need to get there? Mist me. Give it to me. It’s what I want. Take what soul I have left. Bring me to LA.
I can get prettier for your movie. I’ll lose weight. I’ll be better. You got that medicine that I need. Mist me. I’ll study. I’ll change. Put me on your cover, please, I can be an angel again. I promise. Let me rise and shine. Who do I have to meet? What corner do I need to stand on? I’ll go there, I’ll do that.
You got that medicine that I need. Take it from me. Have what I had. Just give me my time. Put me in your movie on your TV show. Please. Mist me.
Make me a star. Put me in your movies, buy me a Louis.. What I’d do for fame.
Give it to me.
I’ll trade all eternity for it. Bring me to LA. Put my star in the sky for all to see. I’ll take it hard. Whatever you want.
Now, I see. He took my soul away. You can’t make me happy. The work is what I truly need.
If you only knew what people have done for it. What monsters they have to live with. You only see it briefly on screen. Please stay longer.
You got that medicine that I need.
Posted by Michael Mazzella |
Posted on February 19, 2014
I by no means am an expert on this thing we call life. I by no means am an expert of how to be the best actor, talk show host, comic, author, singer, or dancer. I am simply a child of GOD, just hopefully gazing, like WE all are. Recently while eating dinner at my favorite Los Angeles restaurant, Villa Blanca, I had a conversation with someone whom I deeply and passionately respect. She spoke to me and our other darling friend about life’s little misses. You know, those moments where you are just so close, an inch from the kiss, but for whatever reason, known or unknown, the kiss is interrupted and what would have been is lost.
Her words were profound. The juxtaposition of complete devastation and learning lessons of those little misses were mystifying. The language I was hearing reverberated throughout my body. I was unsure if I was going to cry over her frustrations or rejoice in her strength. Life truly can be a contradiction, but isn’t that part of what makes it so beautiful? I believe it was Susan Sarandon who explained that her life had been built on a series of stupid mistakes that eventually took her to where she ended up. This same ideology can be used for those little misses. Perhaps it is those misses that end up taking us to exactly where we need to be, exactly when we need to be there, leading to the big hit we were hoping for the entire time. I believe this to be true. We are exactly where we need to be right now in GOD’s divine and perfect plan for us. Each miss can be painful, heart wrenching, but as the great teacher of life Iyanla Vanzant says, “The best students get the hardest lessons.”
I began to think of my own misses. While my life has been much shorter and far less expansive than the greatness of whom I was sitting next to, the lesson was the same. It is our darkest hours that make us the most beautiful and lead to our greatest triumphs. In my opinion a triumph could be defined as the moment when we are blindly traveling down GOD’s path for us and a street lamp illuminates, allowing us to see exactly where it is we are in that very moment. A wink from God showing us that we are where we need to be, having made it to the next mile marker along the journey of life.
It’s been said all people will have a “dark night of the soul” at one point in their lives. A night where all of those little misses culminate into one gut ripping moment that causes you to vomit the blood of life’s painful experiences while simultaneously feeling tremendous heart ache ache and sorrow. However, like a cloud that floats through the air transforming into ice, rain, or snow, we will be a new while remaining the same.
Posted by Haely Chadwick |
Posted on December 13, 2013
By Haely Chadwick
Amidst the hustle and bustle of finals and preparing for the holidays I received a subtle reminder of what is really important in life. This reminder came in the form of an email from a middle aged professional in the city of Augusta. I have never met this person, nor have I ever contacted this person before. The email said, “Dear Haely, I have never met you, but I just wanted to let you know how inspiring your story is and how impressed I am by your enthusiasm for spreading awareness along with your writing skills. Keep doing what you are doing, and you WILL change the world. From one survivor to another, you are changing lives. Also, my daughter attends your school and is not very well known or outgoing. She knows of you but you have never met her acquaintance. Despite this she came home last night smiling because she was having a horrible day, and you saw her in line at school looking down and reached out to her to simply ask how her day was going. It is little things like this that show true character. Thank you.”
I am not sharing this to brag, or to make it seem like I am a saint, because trust me I am not. I only wish to remind people that someone is always listening, always watching, and the little things like this do truly matter. It is so easy when you are stressed or busy to just walk by people and unintentionally ignore them. You may think that whether or not you notice them heading toward the elevator or that taking the time to say, “excuse me” in a busy crowd will matter, but it does. Everyone has a struggle they are trying to overcome on a daily basis. Whether it be something as small as trying to get a 90 in a class instead of an 89 or as serious as trying to have enough money to pay the electric bill, or trying to pretend that your significant other isn’t hitting you, carrying on like you are ok when inside your entire world is crumbling. Every day I meet or notice people who are dealing with something that they hide so well. The only way I make it through the toughest of days is with the support of my family, the sweet texts I get from girls in my sorority, or the notes left on my car from my best friends! Because of these people in my life, I succeed every day. However, everyone is not as fortunate as me therefore, I have made it a priority to uplift others around me. Life is HARD, and just by waking up every day we are all survivors. We each have a story to tell. They may be different, but we each have our own unique story… That is what links us all together. Take the time in your daily life to simply smile at others around you. Say hello to that janitor you pass every day on your way to class, or to the student that sits in the back of the room. They may need a smile just as much as you do. And from my experience, making someone else have a better day will make yours better as well. Never forget the little things!
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